new skinz

hmmp...
finally i know how to change my blogger skin...
I've tried many other different layout
2 or 3 of them were satisfied me
i like this so-called 'Gothic' layout the most
may be it can comfort my mood
grayish in color
yet
it's kinda funny anyway








feeling not so well both mentally and physically...
*moodiness

break the promise

I'll never give a promise to u again...
it is such a fragile promise to keep
making u fed up not the first time
i used to be like that
u will get angry
not surprising at all
speechless? depress?
I'm sorry...
it's all about my fault
no one could understand me the most.
may be the constellation might know
again and again...
I'm hard to understand
lost my temper all through the way
hard to control it
somehow someday i won't be like that

the 18th months

oh yea, today is the day i'm looking forward to. 27th of every month is means to me. As everyone know, today is the 1 year and 6 months together with my King. teehee ♥ I need your wishes and applause please...don't be such stingy la. =p

Right after the second hand of the clock had passed the big '12', "...happy 1 year and 6 months bibii~" straight away i'm yelling loudly and rushed to his warmth embrace. He was a bit shocked by my action, "...bii, i'm the first person who said this to u" weee~

Our stomach were drumming and it's yelling for some food to digest! oh God, we were starved and hungry like the hungry ghost!! 'cause we didn't feed our stomach with anything after the lunch time. No wonder why it's protesting us la. So ya, we've decided to fill our stomach in with something easy find and easy done! Hey, what do u think it'll be our supper huh? ngek ngek... it's my King's fav ♥ --> cup noodles and porridge. Hey bebiii, "...bei lei han dou la" * don't so surprise, i still remember u loved to hear my pronunciation in Cantonese right? =D okay, as a conclude that we bought those 'rubbish' or junk food to satisfied our hungry-ness. Once a while is okay, i knew it. = ) it's hard for my hands to stop grabbing them though! That's why u look at my body size, it's always 1 inch smaller then the girl's actual size which is same age with me. i'm facing this problem since when my primary school time. The puberty of each girl is different, i'm the one always slower then the others. erm... lack of nutrients la, my bone rack too small la, bla bla bla...da da da... haiz, it's a normal thing for me. i can accept it.

i couldn't close my chin when i'm informed to increase my weight to 50kg as well. i was like... :O u know? What the hell is it? 50 is a big amount to me, i personal pronounce it as 'fat'... Now, i've been told to put in myself in this range? don't kai wan xiao please... I don't wish to call by people as 'fei po' or other words that would irritating my ears and heart. Anyway, i'll try my best to gain my weight to 45kg la. okay, try!

hmmp... i'm out of topic again. =X
come back come back......
it's easy to fall in love with someone in a second time, yet it's not easy to get along well with him/her. I'm very sure u did heard before thist, it's not easy to love with each other 'cause all of us are tiny human being, we've our own temper as well. So, we must ensure that is not hard feeling between u and your loved one. So do i.
At last, happy together with my bebii King ♥ . Hope u always loved me with the 100 reasons.
The 100th reasons is no reason. mmwak

nightmare...

had a nightmare this morning
it made me shivering until now...
my hair stood on the end... it creeps my mind!
here is the story begin...
it was after CNY holidays, i'm on the way back to my KL home. (not so sure where am i actually, everything is like a maze) i put all my red packets inside a paper-made bag. (included my King's, yet i don't know y)
when i just reached there, i thought it was safe for me to carry it on hand. (i think it's more safer if i cuddle them on my own) yet, who knows it was an Indian guy came over to me and said: "hey, what are u holding on?" after that he just grabbed the paper bag from me. the whole red-packets fall on the floor. he said:" wow~all red-packets!" i can see the cunning spark through his eyes. creeping... i'm shock at the time and couldn't think anything at once! he grabbed all my things and ran away, no one is gonna to help me! although the guys also like that, they look on me with folded arms! what a black-hearted man! fortunately, it's a kind girl who helps me to knock down the thief and i could took some of them back.
when the time i saw my King, i'm guilt to face with him. i kept repeating : y should i took the bag out on that time? y? i kept on blame myself. yet my King is consulting me not to put a blame on me. he knew it is not my fault actually...
hmmp...
this nightmare did a big impact on me. it's just like a incident that happened on me!
hard to cool down...

just to be with u

I lose myself
in your beautiful eyes
I cant pull away
even if I wanted to try
Your perfect
in every way
The thought of you
just makes my day
When nothing seems
to go quite right
and I no longer
can see the light
I cherish
every word you've said
You move me
like the music I play in my head
In this world of false truths
I know only one thing true
I'd give up everything
just to be with you.

-by Bobby Allen

thanks for the '100 reasons y u love ur lao po'
this is the best gift for our 1 year and 6 months
♥

time with my King

everyday is a wonderful day when i'm together with my King.

love my curl hair some of the times. it looks like those Japanese model in the magazine i mean my hairdo not my face. it's still a million mile for my face to put the 'simillar' as the Japanese girl, i'm not dare to put it at same side. although i do hope so. big contradiction of my personality. :O the middle side of fringe suits me? or it looks stiff? hmmp...not very sure yet. 'cause it's still a bit short, not natural. happy to have a change not always the same full fringe. *copy cat prohibited! kick*
=D
my King always kacau one, yet he is cute

ok, enough for that.my turn. = )

premonitory of my look when i'm 25-year-old. X ) oh God, it seems like extremely old! yet, this call mature?! i can accept this word nowadays. is a step for me to become a lady. lady-- means a girl who is high educated, with a politeness manner either words, or action. do u think i can pronounce it well in front of crowd people? may be, who knows? i'll try. HAAH i don't believe it so, much less is u? LMAO



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我所谓的洒脱

我很‘拼命’更新部落格
看看朋友的
三两天一次；
两三个星期一次；
甚至是一个月一次
说我很依赖它？不疑有否
对我来说，它是个很好的发泄平台
用来宣泄我的快乐，不满
很多人觉得
把我的心情赤裸裸的袒露在这里好吗？
或许我会觉得
这就是我的方式
我的目的不是炫耀
只有懂我，爱我的人才明了
不需要他人的意见
其他人都是个 屁
我不在乎
任何不满？
只有一个字











滚。

when i smile at u, it doesn't mean that i'm happy with u.
if i put a sour face on u, it doesn't mean that i'm angry with u.
don't think that it's easy to judge me
for a better result, don't judge me!

hoarse voice

today's class has been canceled.
it's a good news for me
not that i don't want to go for the class,
but i felt into sick again
i'm so careless...
didn't drink plenty of water+ eat lotsa junk food *we've been noticed that how to say no to it
yet,
i'm unable to restrain my desire to have it
GOSH!
no one is going to pity me
i deserved!!
if u stand 1 mile away from me
i think, u still can hear my scary hoarse voice
i'm the devil!
stay away from me

moodiness
=*(

queer fish

i didn't go for the interview
'cause i really lack-of-confidence
not yet well-prepared
it hears like an excuse *excuse is the best friend of evade
somehow someday, i won't let the excuse to occupy my space of thinking
the day is nearer to me. perhaps so
...
suddenly blank of my mind
a stupid guy made it for me!
stop asked me the stupid questions OK?!
don't always 'he he hi hi' at my chatting box
just straight forward what u want to know from me
i'm willing to answer it as long as u're not step on my 'land mine'
sometimes, i feel that guys are stupid enough! *sorry to say that, i'm really bad-mood!
see, u made me can't think of anything
it's not because of u're important or great impact to me
but u ruined my mind when i'm being annoyed by other things!
...
i missed the chance to meet with my Ya Lun oppa...
it's really a sad case!
i know the venue, the time, the date
somehow, i refuse to go there?!
what's happened on me?
he is my lovely Ya Lun
disappointed on myself
sorry my dear Ya Lun... = (
would u forgive me...?
but then,
i can had a movie night with my baby Emily
it's one of the happiness thing that can celebrate!
i didn't saw her few months
yet, we still can chit chatting non-stop
=D
wish my dear could get the flying colors on her coming final practical exam~
on the other way,
my King also accompany me all the way long
he didn't grumble about anything
big kisszzz for him again
mmwak ❤

p/s: i know i'm emotional, yet this is a character of a girl.
okay, u may said the is an excuse again!

pissed off
yet
don't know why?!
i'm a queer fish!

绝对哒令♥

曾经 我也像其他女生一样
爱 幻想
只沉溺在自己布置的世界里
远远抛离残酷的现实

或许是受到校园青春小说所影响
曾经 我也假设那个‘他’
会是个校园大红人
‘他’ 有着淡淡的青草香
很文静 话不多
成绩好得没话说 校长老师眼里的红人
含金汤匙出世

他的坚持，他的意念
深深吸引了我
或许我们没有可能
命运却开了个大玩笑
就好比现实版的 ‘罗密欧与朱丽叶’

展开一场轰轰烈烈的校园恋爱
丑女配帅男
偶像剧的惯例
我也想尝试

难以抽离
中毒不浅呵

现实中的那个‘他’
完全是相反的男生
‘他’ 没有青草香
只有属于他的专属味道
‘他’不文静
反而很躁舌
‘他’ 一点都不符合我想象中的那个‘他’
但是
‘他’已经成为我想象中的那个‘他’
幻想中的那个‘他’以被现实中的那个‘他’取代
说出 “永远都会在一起♥ ” 这种话
不过分吧？

the Happiness things

my King was coming back for me on yesterday
it's a wonderful thing to share
i missed him for so long time
hmmp...
this whole week, almost everyday i woke up in an early morning
i had to work, attend the courses
it's real tiring yet I'm enjoy it
To fill the hour, that is happiness.
Yet, today
the temptation of 'laziness' is the winner
I'm a loser under it
i had consent the people to go for the photo shooting
but i fail to do so
I'm just too tired
grhhhhh... bad excuse again!

em...em...
never mind, my king is still sleeping like a 'sleeping PIG'
laying beside him
his contour of face is just attracted my sight
can't let my sight off from him!
need his tightly hug*
awwww~
see, how happiness am i.
= )







p/s: my intention to write this text is just to share my happiness to u, but not SHOWing OFF

hesitatinggg...

should I? should I?
I'm hesitating la...
= (

死性不该

风流是男人的本性
男人们 请不要否认
应该被原谅吗？
我绝对 不！
看太多这种案例了
多到厌倦了...
男人还是死性不改
为什么一直不断的伤害女人的心？
不明白！！
男人们，
请自重！
同时也请你们
尊重女人！！！

put a great effort

today is mean to those examinee of SPM
they get their results
it's either a happy or sad case
hmmp...
3 years ago, I'm also facing the same feeling
i could understand their feeling as well
my result was so-so
I'm a bit disappointed about myself
the sickness made me can't concentrate on my studying *i know it couldn't be an excuse
by the way,
i felt glad too
'cause some of the subject that i don't expected to get a Credit or above
somehow, i got it!
GOD BLESS ME
i can get this kind of result really consider as 'lucky'
until today
I'm still feeling regrets
y i couldn't get the flying colors as my friends?
i can't put a blame on other people
I'm lucky
at least GOD DO HELPS ME A LOT
appreciate this
i didn't take good care of my health and study well
so
this is the time for me to prove myself!
i want to be a Winner in this game
never let the people look me down again!
i swear!!
the chance only come once
i have to hold it on
put more and more efforts!
the successful is the mixed of 99% of great effort and the only 1% of luck
I'm just trying my 99% of hardworking
the rest of 1% i'll let the GOD decide for me

alone but not lonely

being alone is awful!!
I'm very sure, all of us have ever been leaving alone
people born to be in pair
non of us wish to live alone
except for those who are anti-social
Libras fear for alone the most.
the Libras can't live without others' accompany!
unluckily, I'm one of them.
i thought that I'm kinda independent start from the very beginning
yet
I'm wrong i guess
my dependent on other people is extremely high!
in especial of the one who are very close to me.
I couldn't trust people easily
in this case, i think that I'm quit independent.
but
if there are somebody for me
i won't let them go easily
holding their hand tightly!
never let go!
however
sometimes, i'll force myself to face it
baby always asked me try to bear with it! don't escape!
whiles,
i hope there is somebody for to rely on.
baby is always the ONE~ * i'm glad
hmmp...but not today
took the bus by one
searching for the formal skirt
walking here and there
but i know baby didn't mean to be that way
he is working right now
must thinking maturely = )
I'm quit sympathy for those who are lack of love either family, friends, or loved one.
glad to have a baby like my Ryan King
pleasure to be best friends just like maG Ying, maG Mian, maG Mei, Emily, Su Hann, Xiao Looi, Tina etc
honor to unite as a family~

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hey hey,it's time for me to share some pictures again
X )

pair of swollen eyes *gold fish


u know, i'm just thinking about U

l0vely day

teehee~
i could add the play-list to my blog already
the previous Mixpot really suX,
it couldn't play song at once!
yet
I'm on cloud nine
I'm feeling like on the top of mountain
schwimmend
X )

todae is a Lovely day

Y♥ Lun

gee~
i just changed the new blog header
he is my lovely hubby Ya Lun ♥
oops...!
baby will jealous if i said like that.
X )
baby just allowed me to like him not love him
ai yerrr....

it's already a dream didn't turn out right~
how should i change my mind?
baby...tell me tell me

oh god, can't take my sight off from him!!!

good image

Mrs Karen said, your image is your POWER!
did all of u agree with this?
i myself totally agree! * nodding head non-stop
if u are well prepare with a nice apparel, fully make up
I'm sure u will feel confident
on the other hand, u just leave it like that
people will think that u are such a slut *i'm sorry to say that
yet
somebody said the intention of a people is much more important then the appear
i didn't deny that
yes, it's important
but do u realize that most of the people do judge the another man by the first sight
we always said that
' don't judge a book by it's cover '
but the majority of us would like to make the first decision by someone's appear
if u said that u don't ever care about the appear of one's
i advise u not to say so
u are just bluffing people! didn't u?
everyone of us would like to treat our eyes with pretty things.
so, please stop saying those lame words




it's a must to have a pretty good image!

no idea!

I'm failed again... *sigh...
always get the wrong information...
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
damn angry with myself
wasted money
angry with my collarbone badly,
I'm such a nerd when i tie up all my hair
bread face always...T__T
never ever been away from me!
y??

come over here, let me show u
please being well prepare both ur mentality and psychology
'cause it might cause ur blood pumping very fast!

1


2


3

BIG face ghost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: my face shown that somebody was owing me RM100000 and never pay back to me.

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i really need a job
can't just giving money out but no in
life still need to carry on right?
hmmp...
no idea no idea no idea at all.

outing

gai gai with bibi yesterday
I'm searching for the things that needed for the class
hmmp...
it takes few hours for us to find a suitable one
many considerations need to care about
'Good things come to those who wait'
things always come to us when we're almost surrender
I got it finally~ = )
teehee *winking eyes...

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.

.

it's the right time for me to add the new members to my cosmetics case~
heavy applause plszzzzzzz~













hey ya,went to the Etude House (brand from Korea)
a very special thanks to bibi~ *mmmwak
the design of the outlets really attracted my eye sight =D
i never use the brand of cosmetics before
so, y don't have a try?
feeling secure with the label of 'Made in Korea' but NOT 'Made in China' *sorry for those who come from China, 90 degree bowing. r0

♥

♥

♥

took some picture of mine before outing

like this picha for no reason

wokay, I'm getting MAD = )


the smile. always *seems like a bit stiff yes or no??

we Ain't perfect

duhhh... I'm so damn tiring man
just done all the housework
sweeping...mopping the floor
that's y I'm so admiring mummy
she could done all the housework's alone
:O
...
lotsa hair on the floor
u know y?
'cause I'm just trimmed my hair
by a hairstylist who are younger then me.
X )
I did swear before not to let MALE's hairstylist touch my hair
the oath was broke!
since he was one of the best bro of bibi
so, I'm dare to let him cut my hair
I'm too shy to say thanks to him even. *SHY did kills me a lot ya. =X
anyway,
thanks him a lot! *i know he wouldn't saw this.
just hope he'll understand
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my stomach still full with the french fried *burp burp burp...
the McChicken burger set as my lunch
by the way still dragging some snacks to stuck in my mouth = )
recently
I'm addicted to McD!
I'm thinking of him all day longs. *the him not the HIM
morning, afternoon, evening, midnight even! *crazyyyyyy
=O
I'm told to increase my weight 2 more kg at least
hmmmp...
it sounds like I'm making fun to those who are a bit chubby then me
yet i didn't meant that
pls don't get angry or feel that I'm arrogant.plsszzzzzzzzzzz
i believe that everyone have their own problem
we ain't perfect




I'll try my best perhaps.

new life

Huu... Finally I can slow down my pace. I'm just like a traveler, go here and there non-stop. My body and mind almost out of control, yet I like this kinda feeling. This is the so-called 'life' isn't it? I have been fully used my time, but still need to work hard and harder to archive my dream. Once u have been decided what u want, u have no time to hesitate. So do I.
I got a lot of advices from the experts, the next step should depend on myself. No more argue, no more complain. All the things should start from now onwards!





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Tomorrow will be a good day to me. : )
I can sleep until the time I'm willing to wake up. Whoa~ Such good~