The day with Bi

This blogger gonna drive me into craziness!! What's wrong with it huh?
All right all right, don't get angry on this small matter. 'Cause u got to know, today is my last day off. >_<
Oh! Damn it!
Hmmp... Stop those sad stories, gonna make my last day happily~

We had our day off with full of joyous. It makes my day actually!
Went for movie, The Pirates of the Caribbean! A very long time taken, but it's still nice to me! Firstly, we had plan to watch 'Insidious', unfortunately, that are there no more! Dampened my spirit! T_T
My bi bought me a khaki jacket and for himself one as well! We both got the 'couple jacket' for the first time! Weee~ : D
Happy ending~ : )

shoot this before going out! He's in my heart, deeply.

half way to have a longer fringe! gam ba tte, keep my spirit on. No to give up for this time!

Mustn't make him disappointed again. : )

Day 4 第死日

夜深入1点,尽然一点睡意都没有 很神奇吧?
我是在期待着什么? 宝贝的归来? 好吃的美食?还是因为明天是休假日?!
哈 真是太太太期待了!
我只想说, 假期 我太爱你了!:D
终于可以避开那些讨人厌的目光了！呼~好轻松~
这个世界真的是不公平的， 虽然早在很早以前我就体会到了，但就是不愿意接受现实。现在可好了，天天都要看人脸色工作。试问，那还有什么乐趣？人生不过如此，受到不公平的对待又能怎样？ 没有人会可怜你的！只有你去创造奇迹让他人对你刮目相看！他们只重视‘成果’完全不顾你的‘过程’到底是怎样。无论你用什么不择手段的方法都好，成绩对他们来说才是重点。
或许，成绩差的人在他们眼里看来是‘废物’ 视如‘粪土’。我是他们眼里的那堆。我不是人，我没有自尊心，我没有地位，我没有权力，我是零。对待我就能敷衍了事，无视于我的存在，说话语气可以不耐烦，看我可以不顺眼外加翻白眼。
口口声声说教我，帮我，到头来问你们的时候那张脸比大便还臭！要不得！干嘛口是心非？！假惺惺！狐假虎威！尖酸刻薄！
踩人不用本，只要是长在我身上的就是不好的例子。你的‘宝贝们’的就是宝 。我是垃圾，我知道。千万千万不要输于我，不然很没面子嘛。我是新人哎，又笨手笨脚，慢吞吞的。对吧？
我说呀，做人不要太刻薄。不然报应一定会降临，放心不会是你们身上而是你爱的人那！我是说事实！还有，麻烦在把事情搞清楚之前不要到处宣扬我是坏人！视力不好麻烦配副眼镜！没有人喜欢被冤枉！到最后连最基本的‘对不起’都说不出口吗？你要尊严那我呢？
妈，我真的好想家，也好想你。有你在就会觉得很有安全感。这里的人心很险恶，很可怕。我的心早被伤害的白孔千穿了，很想回到你的港湾，那里是我最安全的归属...
有时候我好像真的可以了解那些自杀者死前的心情，那种悲愤，那种绝望就是那些可怕人类的杰作。会有那么1秒，有想轻身的冲动。不过，就那么的1秒。反正1个月而已嘛！宝贝会一直陪在我身边为我加油，看我一次又一次被人伤害，然后在一旁拉我一把！
好。很好，我忍！不就那1个月！之后妄想我再踏进门一步！不！望一眼也觉得眼晕！总有一天，我要你们为我哈腰！等着瞧！















*充满动感与泪水的一篇。

Despair

I've tried to pull myself to concentrate on my work, but it seems like no much changes.
I've put all my effort into it, but sometimes the 'luck' will controlled everything.
Most of them did asked me, I'm not a talkative person y do I entering this line? I can say eight out of ten.
They ignore my effort, I've nothing to say.
Just like what bibi has told me, once u believe that u had try ur best don't care 'bout others! They're nothing to me! Ya, they're Mr n Miss nothing.
I mustn't care too much right? Plus, I'm going to leave this world of despair!
I've tried! If I said so, it's really mean that!

I'm happy to leave u. My source of despair. No more!

B day

'Where is my birthday cake?' Fat Lion
'...'
I'm so sorry for everything, for the non-planing birthday blash especially.
His 23rd birthday was mess up my me, it's not surprising at all, short of idea.
Promise him, he'll get a present that he wanted for so long.

focus on my ribbon ring, but not my fingers. :D

Sunshine

Tomorrow will be the last day for the training section.
Only then, I can see my sunrise.
Great!!
I need no more to wake up an earlier morning purposely to transfer here and there, saving cost!
Will spend my off day with FAT LION,
Hmmp... still not yet planing for everything.
The third birthday I will be with him.
Oh GOD, give me some idea la.







Sleep very early these days, short of slumber!!!

Damn! dark circle

I'm still searching for the best solution for dark eye circles as well as how to do a prefect conceal. It always torturing me man! Damn it!
So, I got to try n' try, nonstop searching for the best product! Which color should I used? Creamy? Liquid or stick texture? Oh, so confusing!
Can anybody expert tell me 'bout this? Totally blank mind.
My dark circles follow me since secondary school, how to get rid of them huh? Plus, I'm working late night these days. I couldn't get a good rest except my off day!
GOD, tell me how to survive with these 'fellow friends'?
I know, most of u will say, get an earlier rest before 11pm la, don't focus on ur lappy too frequent la, don't consume any food that will cause the sedimentation of melanin la, bla bla bla n' so on.
I can tell u, I know those facts better than u. The only problem is, thing always go against ur mind!
Please, give me some consultation 'bout DARK CIRCLES!
@_@

身心疲累

好不容易存活下来的意志力就快被打垮了
我真的很怀疑我还能撑多久
被人误会，已经不是第一次了
我坚称我没有错！
没有说出口的话，他人的自以为是 对号入座
很累了
难道赚钱真的那么辛苦？
难道就只有这条路可选？
真的真的好想放弃了
是要撑到多久啊？
如果现在说出这种话一定被打击回来的
某人一定不想看到那么懦弱的我
可是，
我真的很辛苦！
我的梦想呢？
我还没死心！！