Heartache

"see the money flying away...heart arching..."

I just posted this to my facebook. But, everyone thought that i am buying something. Am i look alike a 'Princess' that wish to own everything in the world?? May be the answer is a -- YES!! Although my best ever Machi also thought like that. I am kinda disappointed about this. Hmm...feeling so hard. Nobody understanding me. May be i am hard to understand and acted like a 'Princess' that know nothing. I want to clarify here that I DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING! But just REJECTED A JOB! U know y,just now my supervisor made a called to me and asked me whether want to take a job of selling shower cream or not. I used to say yes! But the training day fall on my birthday. This is the first birthday that i will celebrate with bao bei, so i just can harden myself to reject this job. I am quite upset with this. This time i just need to work for a shorter period and get the same salary with last job i had worked. And so, the working place is so near to my living place. I should have no excuse to reject it. Somehow, i had to do so.
Additions, 27th of September is me and bao bei 1 year being together. If i accept the job, it would be unfair to bao bei and he will get angry too. Although he said he will respected my final decision...but i know he wasn't mean like that! I knew.
Just let the money flowing through my fingertips... Just let it... But then, y my heart still arching non-stop?? Y?? Could anybody there tell me y??
Bybye m.o.n.e.y