=*(

Stupid ulcers make me so painful!
I'm starving yet couldn't put anything into my mouth, it makes me No appetite.
Hardly to smile, talk , brush my tooth even wash my face also will lead to the painful from mouth.
I couldn't have any face expression. FML
*Dislike

Bibi help me!
D'=

D'=

We cannot live without friendS. They were there to make u happy, share your happiness, the one to talk to...yet,when u're in trouble, which friend/S still stand beside u and told u 'don't worry, I'll be there for u'? Who? I answer u, NO ONE. Is definitely NO ONE! Except the ONE who really care for u. *I'm too afraid to be that person, because I can't help him at all. ='(
I think it'll be a SUPREME long night for me. I couldn't get into bed perhaps.
I don't wanna my beibii to sleep in the locker of the hotel...
I don't wanna sleep alone without him by my side...
I couldn't do anything to help him...
=*(
Yet...I just can let it be...



unhappy.

Greedy people

Greed is the fault found in all human beings. No matter u're Chinese, Malay, Indian, Arabian or other races. I sincerely see through these shortcoming from them. I hate this shortcoming seriously!
They will start complaining and start to critic and compare too. Okay okay,customer is always right. *WTH bull shit
The daughter is exactly same as the pattern of the mother. GREED and STINGY! And uhh the face bold as the brass! Aduh, I have no eyes to see them. Hey aunt, do u know that u look so 'ugly' when u request for more samples? Do u realize that? Don't make people hate u off okay?
Since I'm still small, mama already told me that no to become greedy people. Not good Not good. Teacher said cannot cannot. But still they do the same thing. No wonder her daughter follow her footsteps. Aikss, pity them.
Is it the way for me before I become a great person? The lesson about the shortcoming of human behavior. All right, if it's a lesson that I 'must' learn, I have nothing more to say. That's it.

回家

心情处于灰色地带. 没有一件值得庆祝的事

陪着我的只有这杯没营养的泡面

忘了多久没回家看看亲爱的妈妈,姐姐和弟弟了…他们也应该很想我吧

兴致勃勃的想回家,可是又再一次地让我失望了…

得知不能回家的那一霎那,泪泉轻轻地被拨动了一下

但,我还能忍.

仿佛灵魂已经脱离了躯壳,不再是我的了

散漫的走着,只有我一个人.好孤独.好想哭.

好想念妈妈.想念我的家. 想念家里的一切.

迁就工作时间…

要不是因为生存,工作来干嘛?

贝比问我,为何我那么伤心?

原因无他,很简单.

“想念”

只有家人才给得到的”归属感”.

“下次”又会落在何时?

真的不要太久,我怕我受不了.

没有家真的很可怕.那种感觉你不懂.

18.10.10                                                                                                                                           

如何是好

矛盾,恍惚,不安...
该如何是好.
我的未来与他,谁才是最重要?
也许我不该衡量.
放弃了他等于放弃了我自己.
但是...我的未来呢?
不想永远窝在这里.
想改变,把一切不可能换作可能!
现在是时候吗?缘分是否已到?
我该如何是好?
难道真的不能两全其美?非选者不可?
我的天!
哪里一步才是对?
应当是他们选者我而不是我选者他们,是这样没错吧?
但...我的他该怎么办?

Miss blog-ing

I want to blog so much but this is NOT the right timing.
how sad it is.
='(

Too naive.

I'm the stupid naive.
I was wondering all kind of good things will come to me certainly. I'm wrong! Too wrong to have that perception! May be start from earlier I should know, knew that I'm not qualified for that.
That will become true once in my dream. Don't think that I'm enough for that. Don't ever try to do so! How foolish am I huh?
Why, why I couldn't speak out and become more sociable like others? Do I born with that? ...Nope! I just too scare of anything! Brave-less.
Next time, will that be really okay?
All right all right, that's not my strength.
Dreaming without action is my style.










My life is just like a mist. Couldn't catch it.
I'm not sure when will I give up. I can pretend nothing in front of people but not U.
Need U right now.